Its Still going wrong.

Had an awful group tutorial....Funny I’d just watched the grilling episode of the awesome American Office and fuck I had a grilling. My work sucks....its not all bad... there’s some good aspects about it, but its be those aspects ive been focused on, whiles ignoring the bigger picture (Pun Son) which is …………
What the hell is it!
And if u think it looks like what it is (a cityscape) then why! Well if u thinks it’s a good looking City Scrape and u like the lovely mark making; which my prints do have....the only thing I thought about ...then fair enough. But it’s not good enough and I can do better. The problem is the inspiration and reasons why I do these prints (apart from liking the printmaking process allot) are not getting though. These things are along the lines of feeling small and insignificant in the big, scary world you have no control over, so you don't rally care, but know this and then u have a think and u feel awesome or over welled by it all and u either feel shit or excited by that feeling, I've lost that aspect to my work...because I can't be arsed.
So I need to try and get back in to it.
I have got some Idea of how to achieve that feeling....but you need to be in to it......it....it’s the same it as in On the Road that Neal talks about. Right now I‘ve had a drink and smoke and want to find it, But that’s only because I’ve had a drink and a smoke...its not self.....made.....pure ...so I’m not going to get my sketch book out and try and work towards it....because I still can't be arrested...you have got to feel it...and I can remember when I did (this is sounding like Kurt Cobian’s suicide note .....I just haven’t felt that excited about music in years ...blah) .......so I need to get back to IT or at least do enough to pass this bloody course.
One thing though is pretty clear...it’s that feeling (IT) I want to capture in my work...if I see it then I’m happy... and maybe the viewer would do to and then we are all happy. But if I can’t then there’s nothing I can do really, but just pass this course by getting enough work done. I’m not going to try and get an idea or concept across...because I haven’t got one Its sort of like punk rock....and I like to think of my self as an punk rocker ....its meant to be honest and real, and if it is that , it comes easy, if it doesn’t come easy then what’s the point. I think my work may be like that. Really though I’m just too lazy.

Anyhow working on a print, it’s going ok, but I need to stop and re think everything. I need to get an idea what my final show is going to look like, that’s the next step. After that it’s getting the prints done. Images off that print are below…..or above.